Day 81 of 365

I am feeling completely alone in this battle. Everyone says they support me but no one is willing to step forward to speak up for me... I want to turn and retreat, run away to somewhere safe, but there is no where to go...,

The walls are closing in and the fire is surrounding me, there is no where to retreat...in order to escape I must run through the fire, but through the fire could mean death, but on the other side there is life...

I am waiting for a hero, a friend, a loved one to burst through, but no one comes...they have no time for me only themselves and their needs...But what of all the time I helped you, cared for you, loved and rescued you...

Only silence in return...

But as I sit in silence...the tears come...they act like rain taming the flames surrounding me and washing my soul clean...and I feel the warm presence of arms surrounding me and a soft murmur of someone telling me I am loved and not to fear, that I AM here...

No Love? No Peace? Know Love, Know Peace
Musicsongbird

The Warrior is a Child - Twila Paris 


Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

Unafraid because His armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
Never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
the warrior is a child

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The Warrior is a Child

Comments

  1. Holly ChristineMarch 22, 2012 at 4:49 AM

    I know you feel like you are alone, but I am praying for you, not just once a day, but throughout the day, God brings you to my mind and I pray for you. And as you said, the best one is with you all the time.

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