The 5oz Foodie

The life of a Skinny Girl Trapped in a Fat Girl's Body isn't easy... I have spoken about how until I look down or look in a mirror, I don't ever view myself as big as I am... Then when I went into to the restroom at the movies today it made me think of all of the places that aren't fat friendly... The first of course are bathroom stalls... When the door swings into the stall, it's like you have to become a contortionist or you have to almost climb into the toilet itself to close the door... Or even worse you get the skinny stall where... well I will just leave that to your own imagination... Another bad thing for people of girth, are booths in restaurants... It's horrible... It's awful... and it's just uncomfortable... Last but not least... Amusement park attractions... Obviously I know they are made for safety of the occupant of the ride, the issue I have is when you aren't sure if you will fit or not and how the employee treats you... I have

I am so ready for the weekend... Time to sleep in a little, relax and have a good time... I having one of those couple of days, where I feel a little sad and I know that means there is something more going on inside and I need to name it and call it out... The problem is I don't always know what it is or I am scared to say, but either way it needs to come to the surface so I can feel better... Also, I am starting to think that maybe I don't need to be on both happy pills because maybe the sadness I was starting to feel was something that hasn't surfaced yet... Love, peace and ponder... Musicsongbird

It still never ceases to amaze me what I learn when I go to acupuncture... Our body tells us so many things if we allow it to... Plus it is just mind blowing that a pin in one part of your body helps an organ in another... It just proves once again how fearfully and wonderfully made we each are... I am still so very thankful that my boss told me about my acupuncturist... With therapy and the health coach a few years back and now my acupuncturist, I feel like I am making strides in my battle with self-esteem and self image... For once, like my blog, I don't feel like giving up... love, peace and stay the course... Musicsongbird

The older I get the sassier I become... Just ask my co-workers... I have been a special blend of sassy this week... Maybe it's exhaustion, maybe it's insanity... Maybe it's a little bit of both, but I can give it as well as I can take it...Despite the longer work week for me, I am having a great time and getting projects done and getting back into the swing after taking the week long vacation... Sometimes we need a little holiday to clear our minds and look at things from a different perspective to realize just how happy we are... I had to take a cast member over to costuming this morning and I was telling him all the great things about Typhoon and at one point he said, it sounded like I was doing an interview for Disney to recruit people... I think I may have blushed a little but then I said, "Well, I really do love it THAT much..." Which made him smile and laugh... Sometimes you need to spread your joy around to others... When we are happy and enjoying life,

I want to say thank you to all of the Men and Women who have bravely risked their lives for our country both Past and Present... I know I would never be brave enough to do what you do, but I am glad that you are willing to do what you do to keep our country safe and free... I challenge everyone reading to take a moment to reflect on what their sacrifice has meant for us as a nation... I challenge everyone to step out of your comfort zone, when you see a US Veteran or currently serving man or woman; take a moment and thank them... Make them know that they are not forgotten and that they are appreciated... Especially our Vietnam Veterans... Welcome them home... God Bless America http://youtu.be/9y0826GL5aw Love, peace and Welcome Home... Musicsongbird

One of my life long friends wrote the following post on FB today: I revisited some old music today, and found that while I didn't really connect with it a few decades ago, now I completely get it and actually crave it. It occurred to me at a change in musical preference most definitely indicates a change in oneself.. Whether it is actual spiritual, mental or emotional growth, or just parallel change in any of those realms. I am absolutely not the same person I was then, or even 5 years ago. To the opposite effect, music i cherished back then doesn't move me the way it did. Just personal reflections today... It does make me excited to always seek out new music, because there is no telling what will strike a chord with me in the future! :) It really struck a chord in me and made me take stock of my own musical tastes and feelings and how they evolved over the years... I love all kinds of music but no matter what age I am, I will always have a heart for Contemporary Christ

I am just exhausted... I thought when you came back from vacation you were supposed to be relaxed and well rested... I guess not this time... I think what I need is a day at the beach or St. Augustine or Boc Tower... A day where we aren't running from meeting this person or that person... A day where we can just enjoy whatever happens, not where we plan it all... This vacation just felt non-stop... I loved seeing my family and friends, but it was just so jammed pack there was not much tome to rest... But, I would not trade that time for the world... I rediscovered a song on vacation... It popped up on my Ipod... Mark Schultz, "Running just to catch myself." That is how I feel sometimes... Like I am running in 8 different directions and not quite catching up with me... Love, peace and trying to catch up... Musicsongbird Running Just to Catch Myself

Back at my desk again... It felt so good to be back at work today... I'm not saying I didn't have an amazing trip, but I think it says something about how I feel about my job... I know I have said it before but I love what I am doing at the water park and I love the people I work with... I am still praying that something happens and I can stay or that another even better opportunity comes my way... Something I have learned in my work life... Do something you love or be miserable doing something you tolerate... I know people that have been in the same job for years and years and they are far from being happy... They do it to pay the bills and that is it... At one time in my life I was a little embarrassed when I told someone that I had worked for 9 companies in like 8 years, but I wasn't fired from any of them and some overlapped the other... Looking back I realized that I was trying to find my place... And I came away with something different at each job... The bigges

It feels so good to sleep in my own bed again... So I did it... I faced the dreaded scale this morning and just as I had predicted I was up about 10 pounds... Of course part of me is hoping it's water weight. :) So, I am trying to get back on the right track and eating the way I should and not like we all do when we go on vacation... I want you to know I am not punishing myself for enjoying my vacation... I am just going back to taking it one day at a time... Baby steps to a healthier me... Love. peace and one day at a time... Musicsongbird

We are finally home safe and sound... The bags are pretty much unpacked and the cat's are... Well they are cats... We are both exhausted... But what a wonderful time we had! We ate so much memory food and enjoyed every bite, sometimes too much... And now we will face the dreadful scale tomorrow, whenever we wake up that is... Thankfully the house is pretty empty of food so it will be great choices at the grocery store come tomorrow...After we wake up... I see lots of fruits and veggies in my immediate future and I see walks.... Long heart beat raising walks, I might even jog.... and I night not... ;) I have my mini goals in my mind, I just need to get them down on paper and post them on my wall so I see them everyday... And I will do it... Just as soon as I wake up from my welcome home nap... Love, peace and it's good to be home... Musicsongbird

Our happy holiday is rapidly coming to an end... Today and this evening we spent time with some more amazing friends... It's nice to reminisce and get caught up but then it is even more fun over a competitive match of Mexican Train... It was so mice for my brother to come by our hotel to say goodbye to us... I will miss him and the rest of the family but I am excited to get back to my babies at home and believe it or not, to work as well... Love, peace and last night in the hotel... Musicsongbird

Yet another enjoyable day... Slept in late... Had to turn housekeeping away... :) Spent the morning shopping with Mom and then had St. Louis Bread Company with my Sister-in-law before heading over to their house for a bit... This evening the whole family had dinner at AmeriStar's all you can eat Buffet (Mom, the brothers and the sisters-in-law). It was very good. Then we hung out in our beautiful room... Mom and I both think this is the most beautifulest and nicest room we have ever stayed in... This has been the best trip and we have had in a long time and it isn't over yet! It is time to crawl into the wonderful bed and snuggle down to the noise of the storm outside... Love, peace and sweet dreams... Musicsongbird

Yet another great day with family... My sweet Great Niece was baptized today and I got to see the rest of my nieces and nephews, along with my sister-in-laws family... I haven't been to a baby baptism in the Lutheran Church so it was a very different and interesting experience for me... My sister-in-law took tons of pictures of all of the family and the baby and then we all headed to this sweet country restaurant in Brighton, Illinois... It just oozed with country charm, from the cedar siding to the miss matched tables, chairs, plates and silverware... The light lunch we had was delightful and the desserts were so delicious... It was bitter sweet to have to say goodbye to my Great Niece, because the next time I see her she is going to walking without trouble and talking... I guess this is kind of how my Grandma felt when my family moved from Wisconsin to Missouri when I was almost two years old... But thankfully we now have Skype so we can see her when she is at my Big Brother&

Today was so great... My nephew graduated Suma Cum Laude from Missouri S&T with a Civil Engineering Degree... It was nice to see the extended family on both sides... Sometimes life brings you big challenges but in the end if we are faithful, Christ will see us through... It was also nice to visit with BFF's Mom and Dad... They are apart of our extended family and it is hard when you only get to see each other a few times a year... I am so blessed that they are in my life and I am so glad we were able to spend a little time together during this crazy week... The one thing that brought tears to my eyes today wasn't my nephew graduating or seeing my extended family... While waiting in the lobby of the Gym at my Nephews Graduation I noticed a Member of the US Air Force standing by himself in his fatigues and backpack... Waiting for Commencement to end... I watched as people passed him without a second glance... It made me sad that not one person acknowledged him... So I tur

What a great night... I love reuniting with old friends... It's just so amazing to see how we all have changed, but then put on a line dance or some cheesy pop song and we are all back in High School again, dancing and singing along... To all my peeps that were there, I love you all and I can't wait until we hang out again... Too the ones that couldn't make it, I hope to see you next time... This trip has been so great so far... Spending quality time with the family... Eating rice bowls, buying overly priced cupcakes and then pastries... Playing games like, let's see who can roll the windows down fastest... ;) I am especially enjoying the laughter that almost brings us to tears... But it's not over yet... Until the next adventure....tomorrow.... Love, peace and adventure continues... Musicsongbird

Another fun filled day leaving me smiling yet exhausted... There is nothing sweeter than seeing a Great Grandmother with her first Great Grandchild... And there is nothing funnier than watching that Great Grandchild fart, then and smile and giggle at what she just did... I know that was a bit crude, but you all probably giggled when you read it... It was such a treat when my oldest brother asked if he could bring his sweet 11 month old granddaughter with us to Grant's Farm... It was a Mother and her childrens day together and it was so fun to bond as a family that doesn't get to spend much time together anymore due to distance and life... As sibblings, my older brothers and I have had our ups and downs, but I know that if one of us ever had a problem the other two would be there for them... It's nice to know, as the baby sister, my big brothers are there to protect me...  Love, peace and love my big brothers... Musicsongbird Grant's Farm Culvers Jack in the

What a day... Up at 4:30am (eastern), got ready packed up the car, kissed the kittens good bye and headed for the airport... Checked our luggage, got our boarding passes and proceeded to passenger screening... Wen up to the TSA agent and handed her my boarding pass and ID... She looked at it and looked at me and that's when it hit me... I hadn't handed her my drivers license... Do you see where this might be going? She said, "Now that I know where you work, can I see your drivers license?" I looked at her, hand over my license and replied, "Well, now you know why, I need a vacation..." Smiles and giggles all around... Had a pretty uneventful and quite flight and then we were here... Home sweet home... Back in the town where I grew up... After the bathroom, the baggage claim and the rental car place it was straight to White Castle!!! I'm sorry southerners, Krystals are NOT the same... A trip to Wallies, and then to the hotel to check in and unpack...

Tuesdays are always one of my favorite days because they are acupuncture days... Today I think I had the most weirdest pin point... When the pin point has a tendency to hurt more, my acupuncturist refers to them as ouchie points... So I had to breathe really deep and then cough like I have never coughed before, and when I did it hurt but only for a few seconds... Now what happened over the next 40 minutes or so was weird... The pin was in my right foot but the weird sensations went through my left side... My mind went clear for a bit and I began to relax and before too long, my body started to spasm to tell me it was done with the needles... It's amazing because I feel so relaxed, I have great quiet time with God and He gives me rest as well... I told my acupuncturist I have been feeling really anxious because my TA could possibly be ending on the first of June and she said something really insightful... She said, "What happens at the end of a book?" I said, "The

Another quiet day at work... It's nice that it's quiet so I can get things done... Plus I can sing out loud with my CDs and talk to myself with no fear of anyone answering... Love, peace and silence is golden... Musicsongbird

Today is the day we celebrate our mother's... I have the honor of living with my Mom... It isn't always easy but I'm sure she feels that way too, and I wouldn't trade this time with her for a million dollars... Anyone can give birth to a child but it takes someone special to be a Mom... I remember my Mom would roll my hair in curlers or even gave me a perm a time or two... We would have special Mom and Me late night dinners out, and still do... She raised me to be me and not be ashamed of it... She encouraged my imagination and even helped it along... She has aided me in growing into the woman I am today... Not every Mom can say that... I have seen friends and family that don't have their own children that they have given birth to, but have step-children and they are amazing Mothers to them... They aren't trying to take the place of the kids' Moms, but be an additional caring heart for them... So today I say thank you to my Mom for helping me to

Sleep is calling and I would think so since I ran myself ragged at work again today... But again it feels good to know that I make a difference... One of the managers I work with was driving out of the cast parking lot today and he yelled out for everyone to hear that I was the BEST COT ever!!! It made me a little embarrassed but it also felt so good to know I am appreciated for the job I do... Love, peace and do your job to the best of your ability... Musicsongbird

I'm not the size I want to be yet, but I did realize something in the dressing room at Lane Bryant today... This is the size I am right now and I need to dress myself right... I need to be mindful that I am working on a better me, a me that is going to change in size for the better and if I am proud of how I look I will work that much harder to look even better... I don't mean that I will be more beautiful than I already am, but I will look and feel healthier... Looking good on the outside makes you feel better on the inside... Love, peace and love me... Musicsongbird Go light your world... http://www.partylite.biz/sites/onelittlespark

Sometimes the hardest thing to do is the right thing... So very often it is easier for us to just turn our heads the other way than to take a stand and possibly end up an enemy to someone... But if that is what they think about you then they know they are in the wrong and you shouldn't feel bad... Because in the long run, if the bad behavior continues and you knew about it but didn't do anything, you are just as guilty as they are... Love, peace and be honest with you... Musicsongbird

What a crazy day... I learned a very important lesson... Always double check the schedule when you have to be somewhere... Ended up an hour early for a class at Disney University today... So because of that I had to stay until 5 this evening... But everything turned out OK... I also admitted that I am pretty funny... Not like Def Jam Comedy Tour funny, but I think what makes my classes I train at work so entertaining is that I make people laugh... I am a firm believer that if you are having fun then you learn better because you are more relaxed... When you are more relaxed you are more open to what is being presented... It's crazy, I can tell you about a whole stand up routine I saw once over 10 years ago, but I can't tell you too much about what happened in my Disney Traditions class, or most of my college classes for that matter... It's kind of like me and music... My parents and I were taking a trip to California when I was in High School and a Paula Abdul song came

Work is totally kicking my butt this week and it is wearing me out but it feels AWESOME... I really feel so confident and I know that I make a difference not only in my areas but also in the office... I love helping figure out problems and even at our most hectic times we are there for each other to bounce questions off of each other and to work as a team to get things done... I love that we have inside jokes together and that sometimes all one of us has to do is speak a single phrase and we will all erupt in laughter... I have found my happy place... Love, peace and find your happy place... Musicsongbird Go light your world http://www.partylite.biz/sites/onelittlespark

I love making rice krispie treats! I think that is one thing I am amazing at... You are probably thinking how hard is it to mix marshmallows and cereal together? Well, it's more than that, you have to get the consistency just right and you have to have a great imagination...  Well, I definitely think I have the imagination part down..  Creativity too... The only part is making them taste, mmm mmm good... Love, peace and marshmallows... Musicsongbird Go light you world... http://www.partylite.biz/sites/onelittlespark

Early to rise and now I have sleepy eyes... I prepared another fantastic dinner for mom and I... Very Mexican fiesta like... Can barely keep my eyes open... Love, peace and nighty night... Musicsongbird

The weekend for me is coming to an end, but it has been a great time...  Celebrated BFF's new job, celebrated my extension and spent time with family...  I started these days off gratitude a few days ago and I saw something in the mirror the other day... I had just tried on a new top and I actually thought I looked cute... It takes a lot for me to say that but I did... :) Sometimes it is hard to say things like that when you don't like the physical condition you are in... You have to learn to look past it and see you true beauty within... Because in the end, that is who people truly see... Love, peace and I am beautiful... Musicsongbird

It's been a great day one of my weekend... I found out I am extended until June 1st now at Typhoon and I can't be more excited... I have to admit I have been anxious about this and shared it with my Mom and she reminded me once again, that if I am sent back to Epcot, God has a plan... That there is a reason for me going back... And no sooner were the words out of her mouth, that I began to feel peace about it... We celebrated BFF's new TA and then had dinner out with BFF and his sister and nephew... It's so nice to spend time with family... Love, peace and extended again.... Musicsongbird Go light your world... http://www.partylite.biz/sites/onelittlespark

I made dinner for Mom and BFF tonight... Nothing fancy just quesadillas and re-fried beans with a Blueberry Crisp for dessert and they told me how good it was and you know what? It was good... I am a good cook... My Mom has told me that I am a better cook than she is and no one is better than your own Mom at cooking... I do have to thank BFF for introducing me to the Spice World... I love trying different spices now and Mom has taken to growing quite a few so we can have fresh spices instead of store bought... Something that has taken me a long time truly realize is that when we cook at home and we have been eating on smaller plates, we have the tendency to eat less... Now I said the tendency, but that isn't always, there are still times that we get so excited about what we are eating that we end up with hardly any left overs and that needs to change... But we are trying new things taking some things out of our normal meals that were a staple for us and replacing them with thin

It's funny how surprised people are when they find out that I sing and not just sing but have a degree in Music... And that I am good... I love singing Christian Music and Broadway... I love Sandi Patty, she is the one person I would love to sing with... Now here is something else that is crazy, this is the first time I have ever said that I believe I am a good singer... Which is weird because I like being the center of attention, but I don't like tooting my own horn... Like when people find out I sing and then they are like, sing something... Most often I blow them off, I feel weird... Almost embarrassed, yet they request I do special music at church or I am asked to sing in a wedding or we go to karaoke and I am all over that... In fact this is my favorite duet ever...  http://youtu.be/bd8bwcg1f7I  It was during one of our Easter Programs back in St. Louis... The crazy thing about this particular recording is Rich was miked and I wasn't... Yes I know I am holding a mi