Day 214 of 365
Sometimes when you hold things in for too long they begin to destroy you from the inside, tearing apart the true person within. When you get the bad out you allow more room for the good so the next time the bad comes around the good can say, "sorry there is no room for you, so move on." I'm a visual/kinesthetic person; I learn best when I can see it and than do it. So, imagine a drawing of a person with a hole where their stomach would be. That's what I was like after therapy. I was able to dig deep and get all of the junk from inside me out. All the pain and hurt and trauma that had buried itself deep inside was pulled out; leaving me with a huge hole. Instead of filling it with all positive things I let negative feelings begin to harbor in that place and I began to bury hurt feelings, self pity and sorrow there once again. Then I revert back to that hurt little girl and I become dependent of others for happiness instead of on the One I can always rely on. After ...