The 5oz Foodie

So many things have happened over this past year, some good and some really good... Some things I wrote about and some I shouted from the roof tops... Some of my favorites included Celebrating my Mom's 70th Birthday extravaganza... My bestie's baby sister's wedding... Getting my 2nd TA and then getting statused... Some things I didn't talk about like I think maybe I should, like getting squished for the first time... Last month I decided that now that I am 40, I needed to take a step in honor of my cousin Jana and my Core Sister and get my first ever mammogram... Was I nervous? Yes... Had I heard it was painful? Yes... But I knew what I had to do to make sure my breasts were healthy... For those of you that have no idea what an exam is like. You put on a dressing gown and other than that gown you are unclothed from the waist up... There is this huge machine you stand in front of and it has two panels. The technician places one of your breasts on the plate and adju...

I feel like I am slipping again... Back into the things that I have moved forward from... Some of the past hurts and maybe it isn't that I have slipped back but rather I haven't really worked through them... It's incredible the insight you gain at midnight after watching a Lifetime Christmas Movie... I know people aren't perfect but sometimes they don't think before they speak and it ends up hurting without intention... Of course depending on your frame of mind the hurt can just graze the surface, where it doesn't need more than a band-aid to make it feel better and then there are times where it can feel like you have a gaping wound... Do you just act like it never happened and move forward or do you confront the person, which could possibly cause even more pain and hurt... So you don't say anything and instead of letting it go you let it replay over and over in your mind and that little boo-boo covered with a band-aid gets infected because all you did...

My   Holiday   Bucket   List: Write and mail a letter to Santa... Have an Advent Calendar (preferably from Germany) Go and have my picture taken with Santa Claus String Popcorn (I've never done it) Go see the Christmas Lights at Fort Wilderness See the Candle Light Procession See it Snoap in Celebration See the Castle Lighting (haven't seen it in a few years) See the Osbourne Family Christmas Lights Make handmade Christmas cards Not skip over Thanksgiving decorating (Yes, there is a holiday between Halloween and Christmas) Be thankful... Well, things are rolling along smoothly with my Holiday Bucket list... A few more of the little gems should be coming off by weeks end... This has been a very different kick off to the Holiday season... Usually by the first we have all of our house decorated but sadly things have been chaotic and I haven't gotten much accomplished on the interior while Mom is just rolling along with the exterior... I want ...

Everyone speaks about being thankful today because it's Thanksgiving, but we need to be giving thanks EVERY day... Not just because of a holiday... It's kind of like Valentine's day... When people make a huge deal out of telling someone you love them...  If you wait to do these things to long you can miss out on letting someone know how much they mean to you... musicsongbird

I am thankful for my imagination... It makes me sad that so many adults I know have a hard time using their imagination as adults... Life is so much better seeing the magic in the small things... To hold onto the wonder of things... With that being said, I don't know if I will be continuing blogging daily... I am not looking for people to say nice things and I'm not looking for a reaction at all... I just feel like some days I am just racking my brain to figure out something to write and I just don't feel like I am benefiting from it... It isn't therapeutic for me if I am not feeling something when I write... Musicsongbird

I am thankful for Hot Cocoa and Pillsbury Orange Cinnamon Rolls... It's the simple things in life that can bring happiness...

I am thankful for the Memories I have of my Dad... How sometimes I am busy doing something and a song will play or someone will say something and it brings a smile to my face because it brings Dad close to me again... Musicsongbird

I am so thankful for days off... After working 10 days straight, I was off today and thankfully so because the wicked Migraine monster struck again... Now my body just feels tired... Musicsongbird

I'm thankful for my beautiful fur babies... They are so sweet and loving, even if they have potty issues... They are so smart and they love Mom and I as much as we love them... Today was our Team Thanksgiving and it was so nice for everyone to come together and share special holiday treats and laughter... The craziest thing we had today was, and I am NOT kidding, possum in coon fat gravy... At first I was leery because all kinds of craziness went through my head, but when I tasted it I couldn't believe how good it was... It just goes to show you how can miss out on things in life when you don't take a chance... Musicsongbird

I am thankful for the quiet of evening... I love being able to sit and pray, or write, or dream... To just listen to the world happen around me... There is such Peace and Freedom when you just sit in the stillness and quiet... When you take the time to let the worries of the day just wash away into the night... Musicsongbird

I am thankful that I have the ability to laugh at myself and not take myself to seriously... Some people go through life being so serious and being so critical of themselves and others that they miss out on the joys of life... We only get one go around in this life and it doesn't do any good to be miserable... Misery comes in so many forms... Being hypercritical of others, you know the one that is giving unsolicited advice where you claim to be an expert yet you don't follow your own expertise, than you have your own form of misery... You feel the need to self inflate your own importance... Making excuses and taking the blame on yourself for someone else's indiscretions or mistakes... Punishing yourself for these things that you did not do because you don't feel like you are worth more than that... Guess what... You are... Don't let someone else steal your happiness... Musicsongbird

I am thankful that God puts me in the place where I need to be even if I don't realize I need to be there... I believe God puts us where He wants us, when He wants us there... They are kind of like divine appointments or I call them God spots... He puts me there when someone needs to talk or needs a shoulder or needs someone to cheer them on or congratulate them... He knows when someone is going to need someone next to them and he puts me there... Musicsongbird

I am thankful for the Hallmark Channel and cheesy Christmas Romances... They make my heart melt... Thanksgiving Decorating at Work! DONE!!! I am trying to keep my co-workers from Decorating as long as I can, or at least until Thanksgiving itself... This is my safety board I did for work... When I was younger I thought I wanted to be a teacher... So I guess in reality, I really always wanted to decorate bulletin boards... Musicsongbird

Tonight was rough... I have this horrible habit of wanting to eat all night... It's not that I am hungry... I think it's my way of swallowing my emotions... If I sit and munch I don't have to focus on the emotions I am experiencing... Tonight was no exception having the urge to get up and go grab something, anything out of the fridge... But tonight I didn't... I focused on something else and now that it is time for bed... I am ready... It's not going to happen over night but the fact is... it will happen... I will succeed... I am thankful for strong will... Musicsongbird

I am thankful for two fantastic Brothers... I love them both very much... Some days you just need time with a good friend and some yummy food... From laughter to tears and back to uncontrollable laughter a good friend is an amazing thing to have... Musicsongbird oh! BFF... I found Cricket ;)

I am thankful for my Health Insurance and the life care benefits we are offered at work... Not only is our insurance a good value the Life care benefits that are open to all employees are there to help with all over health... Without them I probably wouldn't feel the way I do today... Mentally healthier and happier... Now I am not going to say I am 100%, but I am much closer than I have ever been because I have faced the trauma's of my childhood and realized that I am not a victim but a survivor... With that being said, that doesn't mean I have completed all of my battles, but the biggest one has been faced and called for what it was... NOT MY FAULT!!! As I continue my journey I am realizing little things a long the way... This past weekend I realized that I am more like my Mom than I have ever admitted and I don't mind... She may not see it but we both have infectious smiles and giggles... When we are hurt emotionally, we hurt deep... We are passionate about the ...

I am thankful that I have a boss that allows me the time to talk when needed and is a great encourager and supporter... I did something crazy tonight that I never thought I would do... I volunteered to be on a committee with our Home Owners Association... I have been going to the meeting with Mom for over a year and they are usually a lot of complaining about what isn't going right in the park and that there aren't enough members and so on and so forth... Well tonight when they asked for a committee to help with ballot counting for the upcoming board election I volunteered... I guess I have just gotten to the point where I realized that the only way things are going to change where we live is if I am a part of that change... I would have to say the average age of our HOA board is 65... The same goes for the membership that come to the meetings... The problem is that the people that are moving into the Park are younger and may not relate to the older members coming and askin...

I am thankful for the freedom I have found from my past... I am still healing but I am so much happier... It is time... Time to make some REAL changes... I am tired of talking and not doing... I have made my Christmas Bucket and it's crazy that I am making a genuine effort to fulfill all of those items on the list, but when it comes to my health... Well, it's just the same old same old... I want to say something about this though, I live pretty much out loud on Blogger but I think, while I appreciate the concern but this isn't something you can do for me...  If I have questions on how you have fought your battle, I will ask, but please don't try and tell me how to fight my battle... Fight on... Musicsongbird

I am thankful for my home... It may not be a mansion but it is a place that I feel safe in a place I want to be and it is open and inviting to my family and friends... Weddings are always a great time of celebration and love... It is just so incredible to be special enough to that couple to be asked to be a part of the day...  My most incredible things I have ever seen at a wedding happened this weekend... I saw the sand ceremony in lieu of a unity candle... There was a very special Mother daughter moment during the ceremony as well and then my most favorite part of the whole celebration was at the conclusion of the reception... The DJ brought the newlyweds to the center of the dance floor and had the remaining guests all circle around them holding hands as the song, "Don't Stop Believing," played...  These few simple things made it just that much more special... Musicsongbird 

I am thankful for my borrowed family...and tacos ;) Today was so incredible watching two families become one... I am honored and blessed to been given the opportunity to be a part out it... I love how everyone makes Mom and I feel like we are at home... The hugs and love are in abundance from the family we see relatively often and the family we see at these special times together... I am truly blessed... Musicsongbird