The 5oz Foodie

Building relationships is so important, because life is so boring if you have to do it alone... I am so thankful that despite being single, I am not doing this life alone... I am so blessed to have people that truly care about my well being... They text or call when I don't make it to work... They text just to tell you to have a good day or DM me adorable pics to put a smile on my face... Sometimes they will even switch food with you when you ordered the wrong thing, even if what they ordered is their favorite... They are willing to do whatever they can to ensure you are feeling better, or act totally outrageous dumb to get you to smile...  Sure we fight or disagree on things but in the end we love each other and we are here to take care of each other... These friends are so much more than just friends, they are family we got to chose... 

So tomorrow will bring me back around again... Over a year ago I started this journey and I made major changes to my health and diet and lived a strictly followed diet for months after my surgery and as I took the correct steps in adding things back into my diet, I also found myself slowly falling back into old bad habits... Not right away, but gradually... Now I am seeing those choices in the fact that I have been teetering and tottering between a 145 and 150 loss for over a few months and not budging with any further loss... After having a long conversation with myself and having a weekend where I spent entirely too much money on sugary treats... Sadly I even went as far as purchasing items at a bakery when I was actually full from a previous snack, I realized that I need to put a stop to this before I did some serious damage to myself and undue all of my hard work for nothing...  Yes, weight gain and carrying around the amount of body weight I had was partially due to ge...

304... Days since surgery... 95.3... Pounds Lost after Surgery... 146... Total Pounds lost Since January 2018... 73... Percent to goal set with Nutritionist... too many to count... Things I've learned about myself along the way... You would think since losing the weight of 662 Blueberry Muffins I would know it all or be perfect all of the time and never have issues, you would be wrong. Each day is another step in my journey. Some days are great, like when a random person tells you that you look sexy and all you can say back is thank you, even though you don't ever remember being called that in your entire life and then you start to wonder, why wasn't I sexy before? Am I only sexy because I have lost the weight? Because a year ago I hated the person looking back at me and I was ready to just give up because I was never going to lose the weight on my own. There are tons of beautiful sexy big gals out there but I was never in that category. Or am I now sexy because I lik...

Each day as my body changes, I am learning how my mind s changing as well... When you take yourself and your life for granted for so long because you feel like nothing you do makes your situation better, that when you finally take a leap of faith and things start getting better it puts a lot of things in perspective... Time is a big one for me... I realize even more so now after the year I have been through, of how important time is... Whether it is spending time with family or friends, spending time doing things you love...Or spending time doing for others, time is so important... For years I wasted so much time focusing on the negative that life started passing me by... I literally blinked and I went from being in High School to fast forward 26 years later... So much of that time I was unhappy and hiding within an ever growing shell of a human... I didn't know how to stop the destructive behavior... When I came to the realization that if I didn't do something drastic, I w...

This past week and been one of rejuvenation and realization... I'm feeling stronger each day and physically better as well, despite the itchy belly from the incisions healing... I've went from all protein drinks to pureed food... It's amazing how good it feels to eat BBQ Chicken again... Even after it's been run through the magic bullet... Since I have to avoid sugar I have found a delicious Sugar Free BBQ sauce and a decent SF Ranch Dressing... In a matter of days I will be able to move on to solid foods which is very exciting!!! I am definitely seeing differences in my size and am fitting into a few thins that were tight before or stopped fitting well all together... I can't wait to start donating things I no longer fit because they are too big!!! I've been having these moments where I don't feel any different despite the fact that my stomach is now considered a pouch and can only hold 5 oz instead of 128 oz... Mind blown... I told my mom that I wish...