The 5oz Foodie

Building relationships is so important, because life is so boring if you have to do it alone... I am so thankful that despite being single, I am not doing this life alone... I am so blessed to have people that truly care about my well being... They text or call when I don't make it to work... They text just to tell you to have a good day or DM me adorable pics to put a smile on my face... Sometimes they will even switch food with you when you ordered the wrong thing, even if what they ordered is their favorite... They are willing to do whatever they can to ensure you are feeling better, or act totally outrageous dumb to get you to smile...  Sure we fight or disagree on things but in the end we love each other and we are here to take care of each other... These friends are so much more than just friends, they are family we got to chose... 

So tomorrow will bring me back around again... Over a year ago I started this journey and I made major changes to my health and diet and lived a strictly followed diet for months after my surgery and as I took the correct steps in adding things back into my diet, I also found myself slowly falling back into old bad habits... Not right away, but gradually... Now I am seeing those choices in the fact that I have been teetering and tottering between a 145 and 150 loss for over a few months and not budging with any further loss... After having a long conversation with myself and having a weekend where I spent entirely too much money on sugary treats... Sadly I even went as far as purchasing items at a bakery when I was actually full from a previous snack, I realized that I need to put a stop to this before I did some serious damage to myself and undue all of my hard work for nothing...  Yes, weight gain and carrying around the amount of body weight I had was partially due to geneti

This has been an incredible year a half since I  began my bariatric journey and it is far from over...that is why it's a journey and not a race because there really is no end. Each day is about the choices we make and how they pan out. I will be the first to say that not all of my choices are correct but I try and learn from those decisions and move forward yet there are still lessons I have to go through over and over before it clicks. One of those being my love of food. You would think that bariatric surgery fixes that but the only thing that fix anything is making a decision to be better. All surgery does is makes your stomach smaller but even that cant fix your problems. Yes I have lost a tremendous amount of weight in a short time but I also had to decide to change how I eat. Yes, my tiny tummy talks to me and tells me what does and doesnt make it happy but if I choose not to listen and listen to my cravings, yes I still have them, I pay the price over and over.... Like

304... Days since surgery... 95.3... Pounds Lost after Surgery... 146... Total Pounds lost Since January 2018... 73... Percent to goal set with Nutritionist... too many to count... Things I've learned about myself along the way... You would think since losing the weight of 662 Blueberry Muffins I would know it all or be perfect all of the time and never have issues, you would be wrong. Each day is another step in my journey. Some days are great, like when a random person tells you that you look sexy and all you can say back is thank you, even though you don't ever remember being called that in your entire life and then you start to wonder, why wasn't I sexy before? Am I only sexy because I have lost the weight? Because a year ago I hated the person looking back at me and I was ready to just give up because I was never going to lose the weight on my own. There are tons of beautiful sexy big gals out there but I was never in that category. Or am I now sexy because I lik