Day 213 of 365

You can't fix stupid.... ;)

I have spent so much of my life being a people pleaser. I am the one that settles arguments even when I may not be the one that started it,  I agree to do things for people or I go with what they want to do; as not to upset anyone, I have done things in my life to make others feel more comfortable and accepted even when it has gone against everything I believed. It's crazy to think that I have wasted so much emotion and energy trying to make everyone else happy and not worry about my own happiness.

When the end comes and I have to give a report for my life I don't want to say I wish I would have lived more for what I believed, rather than what others believed for me. Do I regret things I have done in my life? I try not to because those things that happened made me who I am now.

Love, peace and finding peace in myself
Musicsongbird


Some people try to listen to the bottom of a bottle
Some people try to listen to a needle in their arm
Some people try to listen to the money in their pocket
Some people try to listen to another's arms

You and I are not that different
We got a void and we're just trying to fill it up
With something that will give just a little peace
All we want is a hand to reach to
Open arms that say I love you
We'd give anything to hear
The voice of a Savior

Some people try to find it with blind ambition
Some people try to find it where no one else has gone
Some people try to find it in the crowns of victory
Some people get defeated and lose the strength to carry on

Some people try to find it in the shadow of a steeple
Some people try to find it in the back row pew
Some people try to find it in the arms of Jesus
That's where I found it, how about you?

-Mandisa


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