The 5oz Foodie

With all of the insanity of the TA and then no TA, this is the first time I have realized that I will survive if a new role takes me away from Epcot... Five years ago when I started, I never could have imagined considering going to work at the Magic Kingdom, but now the only thing that matters to me, is not where I will go but when I will go...  Taking my replacement around and introducing him to his new area today, made me realize how more I don't want to leave this role... How I want to be a part of the training journey by helping develop new trainers and being the encourager of the existing ones... Whether its in Merchandise or another line of business... Before I got off the bus at the Magic Kingdom tunnel yesterday, my tummy was flipping and I was anxious, because the fear of change was screaming loud in my head... However, as I walked down through the tunnel towards the training office where my meet and greet was, I realized that this was the first steps down...

For someone that doesn't suffer from depression, they will never truly understand how you can go from being happy to sad in a matter of minutes, even when you are on medication... There wasn't anything anyone said or did, because depression doesn't work that way… For me it is a chemical imbalance and any shifts in diet or how I am physically feeling can cause a shift… Even though I have been through therapy, doesn’t mean I don’t still struggle from time to time… Some days I get up and I am sad and on the surface I have no idea why, there is probably an underlying reason, but I just can’t see it at the time and sometimes I never know even after the fact… I guess I am writing this because I am going through one of these roller coasters again tonight… Sometimes they just come out of nowhere, sometimes it happens after something disappoints me, but none the less it’s no fun… My only saving grace this evening is that a FB friend posted they were listening to the Gaithe...

Another day is coming to an end... I put up the Christmas tree but that is as far as I got... As I was trying to figure out where and how I was going to plug in the lights, I was overwhelmed but a feeling of sadness and I just couldn't go forward... I turned off the lights, closed the door to the lanai and came inside... I don't know what the sadness was from but I know that the time I spent with my mom, just watching a cheesy Christmas movie was time well spent... Just like in the movie, you work to live you don't live to work because you only get one chance at the life you have and the grave is too late to apologize for time missed out... It doesn't matter how much money you have saved up for a "rainy day," what matters is that you have those people that matter the most to you, with you when that rainy day comes... love, peace and don't forget you umbrella... Musicsongbird

I had the opportunity to present a mini SIM class at one of our merchandise today and the Safety Manager for Epcot Merchandise and Entertainment was there. When we were finished I had the opportunity to speak with her, as this was our first meeting, and she very complimentary of my presentation. It was a nice pick me up. I didn't know what was going to come out of my mouth for this presentation. We weren't given a whole lot of direction on what the area wanted so I had to wing it, and I wasn't sure how I was coming across. Now that I have one day down the next two should be a piece of cake. And today I did something that I normally have a hard time doing... I said thank you, when I was complimented... baby steps... Love, peace and baby steps... Musicsongbird

I choose to be a victor... Life is full of unexpected twists and turns... We can chose to be a victim or a victor... Being a victor doesn't mean always succeeding in what you try, it means trying to begin with... If we never try something we won't know if it is possible... If I had not taken the step to moving down to Florida, I never would be working for my dream company...  So many people I know have missed out on amazing opportunities because of fear of failure... I have had so many people apologize to me lately about my TA ending, but there is no reason to be sorry... I have done what I set out to do when I got this TA. To change the mind of the area, on how they felt about our training team... When situations happen before you are involved and it makes it difficult to see a positive future and everyone is watching to see what you are going to do to make things better, you can do one of two things... You can blame the person before you for what they did and focus...

The smell of Christmas is in the air... I spent the afternoon putting up our outside Christmas display and it is almost complete... I love this time of year, not just because it is celebrating Christs birth, but it's the time of year when people young and old make an effort to be nicer to others and to do more for others less fortunate... It's a little sad that people don't do more all year round but at least they make an effort during the Christmas holiday season... At work I have the pleasure of heading up our toy collection in the trailer for Toys for Tots... So far the box is pretty empty, but I am hoping that people added a few toys to the black Friday purchases and are bringing them in this week... I am vowing to not go out to eat for lunch for the next two weeks so I can purchase a few new and unwrapped toys to donate... If everyone in our trailer brought in just 1 toy, including our core teams, we would collect over 37 toys... That would be amazing! Let's al...

Another end to a magical week... Preparing for the transition back to my Core Trainer life in two weeks... I am so glad it is my weekend... Really looking forward to relaxing a bit and putting up the Christmas decorations!!!! The count down has begun... Love, peace and say no to things fried in grease... Musicsongbird