The 5oz Foodie

So tomorrow will bring me back around again... Over a year ago I started this journey and I made major changes to my health and diet and lived a strictly followed diet for months after my surgery and as I took the correct steps in adding things back into my diet, I also found myself slowly falling back into old bad habits... Not right away, but gradually... Now I am seeing those choices in the fact that I have been teetering and tottering between a 145 and 150 loss for over a few months and not budging with any further loss... After having a long conversation with myself and having a weekend where I spent entirely too much money on sugary treats... Sadly I even went as far as purchasing items at a bakery when I was actually full from a previous snack, I realized that I need to put a stop to this before I did some serious damage to myself and undue all of my hard work for nothing...  Yes, weight gain and carrying around the amount of body weight I had was partially due to geneti

This has been an incredible year a half since I  began my bariatric journey and it is far from over...that is why it's a journey and not a race because there really is no end. Each day is about the choices we make and how they pan out. I will be the first to say that not all of my choices are correct but I try and learn from those decisions and move forward yet there are still lessons I have to go through over and over before it clicks. One of those being my love of food. You would think that bariatric surgery fixes that but the only thing that fix anything is making a decision to be better. All surgery does is makes your stomach smaller but even that cant fix your problems. Yes I have lost a tremendous amount of weight in a short time but I also had to decide to change how I eat. Yes, my tiny tummy talks to me and tells me what does and doesnt make it happy but if I choose not to listen and listen to my cravings, yes I still have them, I pay the price over and over.... Like

304... Days since surgery... 95.3... Pounds Lost after Surgery... 146... Total Pounds lost Since January 2018... 73... Percent to goal set with Nutritionist... too many to count... Things I've learned about myself along the way... You would think since losing the weight of 662 Blueberry Muffins I would know it all or be perfect all of the time and never have issues, you would be wrong. Each day is another step in my journey. Some days are great, like when a random person tells you that you look sexy and all you can say back is thank you, even though you don't ever remember being called that in your entire life and then you start to wonder, why wasn't I sexy before? Am I only sexy because I have lost the weight? Because a year ago I hated the person looking back at me and I was ready to just give up because I was never going to lose the weight on my own. There are tons of beautiful sexy big gals out there but I was never in that category. Or am I now sexy because I lik

Each day as my body changes, I am learning how my mind s changing as well... When you take yourself and your life for granted for so long because you feel like nothing you do makes your situation better, that when you finally take a leap of faith and things start getting better it puts a lot of things in perspective... Time is a big one for me... I realize even more so now after the year I have been through, of how important time is... Whether it is spending time with family or friends, spending time doing things you love...Or spending time doing for others, time is so important... For years I wasted so much time focusing on the negative that life started passing me by... I literally blinked and I went from being in High School to fast forward 26 years later... So much of that time I was unhappy and hiding within an ever growing shell of a human... I didn't know how to stop the destructive behavior... When I came to the realization that if I didn't do something drastic, I w

So I am at my 4 month post op and everyday is an adventure... It's an adventure in eating, in dressing, in how my body reacts to different situations whether through what I have eaten, drank or physical activity... I have more energy and some days I'm hungry some days I'm trying to make up all day for not getting enough... Sometimes my stomach is happy and sometimes...well it's not... I am down from a size 30 to a size 24 in my work uniform (costume)... 110.8 pounds since February and of that 62.9 pounds since my surgery date... Today I was able to sit on the couch and bend forward and paint my toe nails without having to become a contortionist! It's the little things... Every day is an adventure... This coming weekend I'm walking a 5k at my hospital. I'm looking for sponsors to help others like me, find freedom from Obesity... To become an Overcomer!!! Please consider sponsoring me... https://fundraise.asmbsfoundation.org/team/6773

It has been a wild and crazy ride this past 3 months since I laid on the operating table. I have had highs and a some lows but I am seeing a new side of myself I haven't seen in a long time. Many have pointed out the happiness they see in me again and I feel it. I'm really starting to like who I see in the mirror again, feeling like all of my hard work is paying off. People ask how my depression is and I can say not as many down moments as before but they aren't gone. There are many evenings like tonight where I just feel sadness. Not 100% sure why I am feeling it but I am. The tears on the verge of spilling and so many things swirling through my mind. But I will lay down and pray and hopefully when I awake the feelings will have passed. Musicsongbird